August 5
I haven't done a good job keeping up with my journal. But I wanted to leave rome so I have to wait about 6 more hours here at the airport. Well in the journey to find myself, I find that I have a lot of time to contemlate things on my own. 1 thing I have noticed is that I m extremely spoiled. I long for the comforts of the states. I long for companionship. I need to learn how to live minimally on my own. I don't know if this is gods way of teling me I can't do it or if its his way of training me for missions work. Either way, instrad of focusing on the trip, I am too concerned with what I think I need. I think also that money is becoming too important to me. I just need to be happy with what I hyave. I wan to be able to send my parents to greece, buy a car, finish paying the house, get married and buy my own house. All this in the next 5 years or so. Well, I guess ill see what god wants in my life. Now I'm here learning how to fend for myself, be responsible and have a lot of time to read and think on my own. I think the 2 books I brought are very fitting for me. Knowing that god loves me not because of what I can do for him, but in spite of what I do agst him. The other book really shows how we are still slves to the us govt and how there is so much money out there that we're taking from poor countries.
I want so much to see the day of world peace. No more wars over power or religion. Just a day when we can help one another. Spend the money to help koreans poor people rather than a war in iraq. Then maybe the world wouldn't be after us. But we keep interfering and pressing our laws and such on them. But then again, the intervention in afghanistan did help the people there. The taliban were too overbearing.
Well, the thoughts of paula and how much she means to me keep running through my head. I have never wanted to be with someone so much. I really want to see this work out. She is so kind and loves me so much. I can't wait to see her. No other girl really sizes up.
Well the days in between my journal entries I wrote a lot of emails about thoughts and such so this journal should be pretty comprehensive when I get bach home.
just got done with my stint at the pink palace. man that is a crazy place. i wrote a little about it on my xanga, but man, people were just kinda gross there. they had the booze cruise, and they would give girls a free shot if they took off their top and 2 free shots if they took off their bottom.. (when doing a cliff jump). but the girls didnt get their clothes back. they get them good and drunk and start asking multiple girls to 'go downstairs' and have sex. they see people getting blow jobs and just all sorts. it was supposedly this just massive boat for the employees to get laid. no condoms...... talks about guys having stds and genital warts and all sorts of weird crap. im glad i didnt go. just wanted to do my sort of chill thing.
then they have this nightclub here.... really cheesy looking... pink, strobe lights, mirrors... but pretty good 90's american hip hop. just kinda jammed out and had a few drinks..... like any other night in austin. nothing crazy. a lot of these girls are like 19... so they are all about the partying til theyre drunk and done and want to get laid.
well, i had a realyl good time seeing the amazing island. i only wish it wasnt so damn rocky of a beach. i wanted to see sandier beaches. i have this huge ass splinter in my foot and cant get it out. so walking sucks.